rainy days forever

09:05 pm - ummmmmmmm

hi im at my friend sarie's house. me and carson finally got together. very few of you people know who she is. oh well, bye bye

Current Mood: happy

05:08 pm - life change

okay i figured something out today.... i dont like guys, at all. for all you deppressingly stupid people out there, let me spell it out for you... I AM A LESBIAN!!!!!  freaky huh? it was weird, i was just minding my own buisness, when it hit me. right there on the metro it just... hit me... oh well good night for now.

Current Mood: horny

05:03 pm

FAVORITE
. Room In house: my room
. Type of music: grunge
. Song: come to mind by mudhoney
. Memory: ???? 
. Day Of The Week: b days, saturday
. Color: the blue-black of a deep night sky
. Perfume or colonge: neither 
. Flower: black rose 
. Month: december
. Season: winter
. Location for dates: haven't had a good one 


IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU:
. Cried: yes 
. Bought Something: no
. Gotten Sick: no
. Sang: hell yea
. Said I Love You: yes, under my breath as she walked away
. Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them, But Didn't: yes
. Met Someone New: no
. Moved On: not really
. Talked To Someone: yes
. Had A Serious Talk: only with myself
. Missed Someone: hell yes
. Hugged Someone:yes
. Kissed Someone: not in a long time
. Fought With Your Parents: yes
. Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: al the time
. Had a lot of sleep: are you smoking something
. Wanted This Survey To Be Over: okay

Current Mood: depressed

01:37 pm

LAST PERSON WHO..
. Slept in your bed: me...i think
. Last person to see you cry: my dad
. Made you cry: i was crying for no reason
. Spent the night at your house: lauren
. You shared a drink with: rowan
. You went to the movies with: lauren
. You went to the mall with: ? i cant remember
. Yelled at you: my mom
. Sent you an e-mail: my dad

HAVE YOU EVER..
. Said "I love you" and meant it?  no
. Gotten in a fight w/ your dog/cat/bird/fish,etc.?  yeah, i hate it when she yells at me
. Been to New York? no
. Been to Florida? no
. Hawaii? no
. Mexico? no
. China? no
. Canada? yeah
. Danced naked? *cough* yes *cough*
. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day? i cant remember
. Got a really bad feeling about something then it happened? yes
. Wish you were the opposite sex? yes i dont know why
. Had an imaginary friend? Sunny, Queen of the Faeries

This or That..
. Red or blue? red
. Spring or fall? fall
. Santa or Rudolph? grrrr
. Math or English? math
. What are you going to do after you finish this survey? go home
. What was the last food you ate? skool lunch (compleat crap)
. Are you bored? not any more
. How many buddies are on? ?????????
. Last movie you saw? national treasure... Riley is sooooo sexy
. Last noise you heard? annoying people being annoying
. Do you have a crush on someone? maybe
. Do they know? no
. What's his/her name? it starts with an "R"
. What do you think of ouija boards? dont know.
. What book are you reading now? The sandman: the doll house
. Favourite magazine? cosmo girl.
. Worst feeling in the world? when you are really sad but dont know why
. What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning? GRRRRRR
. Future daughter's name? Tear
. Future son's name? Ash
. Chocolate or vanilla? Chocolate
. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? no i sleep with my blanket
. If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be? fashion designer or intirior designer
. Are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrous? right
. What's under your bed? nothing.
. Favourite sport to watch? none, soccer.
. Your Hair Color: red.
. Eye Colour: blue-gray-green
. Height Currently: 4' 11"
. Glasses/contacts: no
. Current Age: 13
. Siblings: rowan, lauren
. Siblings Age: rowan-5 lauren-13
. Location: Seattle
. College Plans: washington university
. Any Piercings: 2 left ear, 1 right ear, want 2 right eyebrow
. Best Friends: lauren
. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: nope.
. Current Crush: NO
. Hobbies: poetry, drawing, thinking
. What Type Automobile Do You Drive: cant yet
. Are You Timely Or Always Late: is my mom driving? 
. Do You Like Being Around People: depends.
STUFF
. Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: yes
. Have You Ever Cried Over Something Someone of The Opposite Sex Did?: yes.
. A "Type" Of Person you always go after: not homophobic, cute,
. Ever Liked a close Guy/Girl Friend: yes.
. Are You Lonely Right Now: hell yea
. Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married: not really
. Do You Want To Get Married: dont know
. Do You Want Kids: maybe

01:27 pm

oh my god. yearbook class sucks!!! all we do is sit at computers. i, personaly, have no idea what im supposed to be doing anyway. oh well.

Current Mood: bitchy

04:56 pm - first entry

jesus christ in plaid pajamas im freezeing it is at least minus a million degrees, in seattle. im really goddamn suprised that there isn't a blizzard outside. i am confused, i have no idea what is going on in my brain. one minute im blowing up at the slightest thing, the next im crying into my pillow. it is truly deppresing. i wish that i could write a book. but whenever i try, my thoughts either come out to fast, or they're to personal to write down. oh well, goodbye now 

Current Mood: cold